Saturday July 23, 2005

My Dearest Nickster.....
You have been gone for sometime now.... It all seems so unreal... I still think you will be coming home... I never ever thought anything like this would happen... I did not ever imagine having to live without you... I had so many other ideas of what life could and would be.. I wanted to take goofy pictures of you and your beautiful Prom date... I wanted to cheer for you at your graduation... I wanted to stand so proud of my son at his wedding and see your face when you got to hold your first child.. You would then start to understand how we feel about you.... Life has taken us on a gigantic detour...I cry everyday when I have to again tell myself this is real. We go on with our day to day lives and do what we have to even though with this pain we don't care. The person I was before was buried with you.. This new person I have become knows you are still with us all in spirit.. I am sure you will embrace the Kingdom of God as you did the life you shared with us.. We will ask God for the stength each day to get through this.. I miss you sweetheart... Please be waiting for me...

Love Mom