Tuesday August 16th 2005

Well today has been a better day... I wrote to some people in hopes to get the word out about this "game" I want to make sure I can help someone else understand it and maybe save a kids life. I know you would want this too. It is hard to tell your story over and over.. I hope I don't have to watch the slideshow in my sleep... I will take the time to help others in your name son. As the months go by it hurts more and more.. I never would have imagined that I could be away from you for this long.. Sometimes I think you are gone to war.. It is so hard to wake up every morning and have to say to yourself... It is true.. the nightmire didn't go away.. He really is gone... I am working hard on living without you... but I hate it.. I think it will make me feel better to do something positive with my time and you would be happy too. You know I miss you and I love you... Keep my spot warm .... I will be there someday... Until then, I will keep writing..

LOVE YOU NICK
Mom