"A Special Doorway to Heaven"

There is a special doorway to Heaven. A young man stands there. He surveys all that God has created, the universe and beyond. He gazes toward earth and says a simple prayer for his mother and family. Jesus calls to him and says, Need not grieve for your family, they are well. The Father has special work for you to do and it includes those of earth whom are so special to you. You are needed here. In time they will see you again and all will be as one. This I promise. The young man turns to Jesus and says, I miss them and they me. My heart wishes to fly through the stars to comfort my mother. Jesus replies, There is no love stronger than the love that was created the day of your earthly birth. That love will last for all eternity. It is a part of your mother and all who's lives you touched. A breath from your mouth she will feel on her cheek. A touch from you she will feel in her heart. Your face with a smile is forever burned into her memory. This will always be. Your words, "I love You" she will always hear. The young man smiles at Jesus. they walk arm in arm away from the portal of youth.
This doorway is for those whose lives were cut short for the only reason that Our Lord needed them to come home early. Special duties await him, a special task that he will be better able to perform from heaven. His love for his mother is endless. As your broken heart mends you will begin to see that he never left your side. Your shadow no longer is yours, it is him. A gentle breeze that lifts your heart is him.
I LOVE YOU NICK!!
Mom

Monday September 12, 2005

Hey Nick,
I am sitting here tonight... looking at your picture and saying this cannot be true... How can this happen? I know you are here with me because I see your signs.. I hear them sometimes too.. I had so many things to tell you.. I had so many things to I wanted to do with you.. I had so many things I wanted to watch you do.. It is hard to keep my head screwed on straight.. and you will think I look funny if it is crooked..LOL I met some really nice Mom's like me... You probably know there son's and daughters by now.. Do you miss me??? I freakin' miss you!!!! I can't smell you anymore... I miss that allot.. I still call your cell phone to hear your voice.. so does your dad.. The girls miss you too .. I am sure Melinda would give her right arm for a good fight right now.. Melissa just loves to look at your picture and still draws you in her pictures of our family.. They try to make me feel better when I cry.. Ken is now sad he is all alone with 3 females.. Your birthday is coming.. I think I will be happy to celebrate your Birth... I will alway cherish that moment you made me your mommy.. I don't want your Angel day to come.. I will always hate that day. I will always be your mommy. I will always love you more than life. I will always hold you close to my heart. Enough sobbing..... Please watch over your dog Sara.. I am sure you were laughing your butt off on Friday when she was acting like Kujo and kept me in the street for 15 minutes in my P.J.'s!! Did you tell her to do that?? LOL I am sure the neighbors that were out for their morning walk thought it was funny... Well it is now 3:00am and I should try to sleep for a couple hours.. I will be sleeping on your pillow.. talk to me if you can. I MISS YOU!
Love,
Mom