Monday September 12, 2005

Hey Nick,
I am sitting here tonight... looking at your picture and saying this cannot be true... How can this happen? I know you are here with me because I see your signs.. I hear them sometimes too.. I had so many things to tell you.. I had so many things to I wanted to do with you.. I had so many things I wanted to watch you do.. It is hard to keep my head screwed on straight.. and you will think I look funny if it is crooked..LOL I met some really nice Mom's like me... You probably know there son's and daughters by now.. Do you miss me??? I freakin' miss you!!!! I can't smell you anymore... I miss that allot.. I still call your cell phone to hear your voice.. so does your dad.. The girls miss you too .. I am sure Melinda would give her right arm for a good fight right now.. Melissa just loves to look at your picture and still draws you in her pictures of our family.. They try to make me feel better when I cry.. Ken is now sad he is all alone with 3 females.. Your birthday is coming.. I think I will be happy to celebrate your Birth... I will alway cherish that moment you made me your mommy.. I don't want your Angel day to come.. I will always hate that day. I will always be your mommy. I will always love you more than life. I will always hold you close to my heart. Enough sobbing..... Please watch over your dog Sara.. I am sure you were laughing your butt off on Friday when she was acting like Kujo and kept me in the street for 15 minutes in my P.J.'s!! Did you tell her to do that?? LOL I am sure the neighbors that were out for their morning walk thought it was funny... Well it is now 3:00am and I should try to sleep for a couple hours.. I will be sleeping on your pillow.. talk to me if you can. I MISS YOU!
Love,
Mom