Happy Birthday Nickster

Happy Birthday Sweetpea!! Today is your day! Your "official" entrance into the world was at 2:58 pm.... I am remembering back to that day right now and it was the best day of my life when you made me a mommy... :) You were my son and my friend through the years and I feel like I grew up with you.. You made me understand unconditional love, really life responsibility, and what it was like to be given the ultimate gift of life. When you were a baby you were always a good and sweet boy.. I thanked God for you... When you were a toddler I did a lot of chasing and you were always a smiling, laughing, happy boy. When you hit school you were a lady killer!! I remember the crush you had on your kindergarten Teacher.. LOL You loved to go to school.. Remember the day you walked home on your own and I was driving all over the place looking for you??? I was freakin' out!! LOL I remember when you would come to the store with me and you would put on the smallest vest we had with a name tag and go bag, do go backs, and really want to push in carts.. LOL You could barely see over one but you wanted to push in a train.. If Casey was there you would follow him around like a puppy... When the "Girls" showed up.. WOW you were the BEST!! You helped me with everything, feeding, rocking, changing diapers, loading and unloading, bathtime, and everything inbetween.. YOU ROCK! I could have never done it without you.. Then Ken brought home Sara.. and you gave up your room for her to have her puppies in!! OMG remember the night she had them and we were both in there freakin' out?? What an experience that was!! Then we had to tear out the carpet and re-paint that room..LOL Then the move.. that was crazy.. Ken had to work everyday and we did it together in 3 days!! You were such a stud.. I could have never done it without you.. Remember on a lot of New Year's Eves we would make shrimp plates and you would drink apple cider with me.. :) Then we made it into the new house.. what a lot of painting we did.. You are the best taper ever! I could always depend on you to help me.. you were always ready willing and able.. You would volunteer to clean the garage and work with me to the end. Remember the March of Dimes walks and the Breast Cancer Walks we did..?? Remember the year you took your roller blades and biffed it as you rolled past the news cameras..lol that was funny..

I painted my office a couple of weeks ago.. I was hard to do without you. I know the Christmas lights and tree have to go up this year ... but I will miss doing this with you.. I hope you are with me after it is up and I promise to sit in the dark with the tree lights on, with eggnog, and sing Oh Christmas Tree... I am not looking forward to the holidays this year and just feel sad.. I miss you baby ...... I love you soooooooooooooo much... Your friends are coming over after school and we are going to the cemetery to send our messages to you on some balloons.. After that we are going to Claim Jumper and I am having a Chicken Pot Pie just for you. You know how much I miss you and you know how much I will ALWAYS love you.. Happy Birthday my sweet precious child..

Love,
Mom