Monday, November 28, 2005

Josh's Baptism November 27, 2005


Hey Nickster,
Well I know you were as proud of Josh tonight as I was!!!!! He made that leap and accepted the Jesus Christ into his heart!!! I was very proud of all 3 boys tonight. Josh is truly your friend. He has made such a difference in my life since you have been gone. I am so grateful you had such a good friend... He has brought me some happiness in all of this ... I know he loved you too.

I wish you could have been there with me.... I know you where in spirit.. :)


Still Missing You Every Minute,
Mom

Thanksgiving 2005


WOW...... How amazing it is to think I have to keep doing this with you so far away from me... Maybe not far .. but away from me.. I had to think about Thanksgiving and say.....

Lord, today I am thankful to be here on Earth to serve you... I will try to bear this cross you have given me and do my very best to help my brothers and sisters... You told us in the Bible that your people die due to lack of knowledge..... You have given me knowledge in understanding my only son's death and given me the strength to teach the others so they can share this knowledge and not have to bear the cross you gave me.... I thank you for giving me such a wonderful son to teach me the joys of being a parent. I thank you Lord for granting me the peace of understanding his mistake. I thank you Lord for holding my hand through this time of grief and sorrow... I thank you Lord for taking care of my precious child. I thank you Lord for all of the gifts you now give me that help me in my mission.

Nick, I can't possibly miss you more than I do now.. I know you heard me tell you at the dinner table that I took extra spuds for you!!! You will always be my Spud Stud. The pan on the floor... I know.. hahaha I hope you got the balloons we sent up.. We all missed your laugh, your smile, your loud mouth, your obnoxious amount of mashed potatoes.. hahaha It's all about you.. we miss you...

Next week... The stinking X-mas Tree.... You better be here in spirit to hold me together.. Your sisters will be with me.. Help me Jesus.. Help me Nick...

Still Missing You Ever Single Minute,
Mom

Monday, November 07, 2005

Nick on TV Tonight

Hey Nickster!!! It is almost time to see you on TV... I am so thankful the word is getting out there!!! I miss you more than words... I would give anything to have seen a show on this before you left me.. I wish I would have known... I hope other parents see it and it saves another childs life.... I hope a kid see it and sees that it KILLS people.. I know you would not have played if you would have totally understood this.. To me the rest of my life is a sentence without you... I love our family .... but I miss you more than words can describe.. my heart hurts .... I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!!

LOVE MOMMY