Thursday June 2

Again it was just another day... Work keeps me busy, but I still think about you throughout the day... Sometimes my heart just sinks and hurts so BAD!! I hope Jesus keeps helping me drive looking through big teary eyes.. I just want to talk to you... I want you to talk back to me.. I find it harder as time marches on.. I hate waking up everyday and having to realise you are gone. It makes me what to stay asleep forever. I hate going to bed at night because I know I have to wake up again tomorrow... I know we can't turn back time but I don't know how to accept that I have to live without you here. I am sure you are close to me.. but it is not the same.. It is hard to know what to do next.. I always thought I knew what to do and tried to always do my best... now I am just wandering through life. You are my baby and I cannot let it go.. I try very hard to be a good mom to the girls.. You would want that too... I know that... I am trying really hard to be normal with the rest of the world.. It is hard. I am so happy for the time we were together.. I am so happy I have so many fun and happy memories.. I have been working on your website.. You are proud of me for that I know.. :) You would be very excited to see your name.com. I want to make sure everyone that knew you can still visit you.. and people that didn't get a chance to meet you can!!! I hope everyone shares their stories about you with us for the site.. Thanks for cheering me up... You have always been the one to do that for me.. Love, MOM