Sunday July 24, 2005

Well the time has come to pack for a family vacation... It has not been the best day for me... These are the things that are the hardest.. I only have 4 plane reservations.. I am not folding any of your laundry.. I am not arguing with you about what to take. When we get on the plane tomorrow I will miss your not being there.. I will try to do the best I can for the girls and Ken... This is killing me today... I will write when I get back ....

I LOVE YOU NICK
MOM

Saturday July 23, 2005

My Dearest Nickster.....
You have been gone for sometime now.... It all seems so unreal... I still think you will be coming home... I never ever thought anything like this would happen... I did not ever imagine having to live without you... I had so many other ideas of what life could and would be.. I wanted to take goofy pictures of you and your beautiful Prom date... I wanted to cheer for you at your graduation... I wanted to stand so proud of my son at his wedding and see your face when you got to hold your first child.. You would then start to understand how we feel about you.... Life has taken us on a gigantic detour...I cry everyday when I have to again tell myself this is real. We go on with our day to day lives and do what we have to even though with this pain we don't care. The person I was before was buried with you.. This new person I have become knows you are still with us all in spirit.. I am sure you will embrace the Kingdom of God as you did the life you shared with us.. We will ask God for the stength each day to get through this.. I miss you sweetheart... Please be waiting for me...

Love Mom

Tuesday July 19th 2005

I was so excited yesterday to see how many people checked out Nick's Site!!!! I am sure he would be excited too!!!! It makes me happy to know his memory will live on. The ache in my heart will never go away... however today I feel good that so many have been so kind as to look at this site... You are my sunshine Nick!!! You are my Angel !!!! I LOVE YOU and I MISS YOU more than you can imagine... As time marches on I find myself wandering through life thinking why??? How much longer until I see you again??This is so not what I had envisioned our lives to be like..... I hate this change of plans that I can not control... I love you honey...

Mom